Saturday, November 19, 2016
Ginny Hunt Saturday, November 19, 2016
“You spoke your words as though you denied the very existence of the shadows or of evil. Think, now: where would your good be if there were no evil and what would the world look like without shadow?”
― Mikhail Bulgakov,
― Mikhail Bulgakov,
After all, one can’t leave his shadow lying about… and not miss it sooner or later, don’t you agree?
|Light & Shadow Tarot by Michael Goepferd|
Sunday, June 19, 2016
Ginny Hunt Sunday, June 19, 2016
When we find ourselves on a particular path that we've devoted a great deal of time and energy to, and the future being what it is, always uncertain, tarot can provide some valuable feedback that we can use to decide "is it worth it?" In fact, there is a specific tarot card for just this dilemma, the 7 of Pentacles:
|Cosmic Tarot by Norbert LoscheUS Games 1986|
Other cards in a reading can give important feedback for us to use when making this decision. The reading itself cannot and should not make your decision for you. Only you can do that. In reading for someone in this situation, even if the other cards show some unpleasant experiences, I always communicate that sometimes we have to get to that really tough place before we know for sure what to do. Or the cards may indicate a struggle to come before a success. So we have to be careful not to jump to conclusions based on seemingly "negative" cards surrounding this dilemma. For example, we might see this sequence:
|Original Rider Waite Smith|
It appears there may be a tangible setback and a time of material change and struggle, missed opportunities for success or assistance, leading to some disappointment, loss, and regret, but then followed by a period of recovery and healing with clear signs you are now on the way to your goal. In this case, I would say don't give up when the going gets tough. You will come through to the other side having learned important lessons and with a clearer vision of where you are going, even though you will not have reached your goal, you will see what you are supposed to do. This still doesn't say whether the person will ultimately choose to continue or abandon the current project, but it lays out the likely progression which leads to knowing what to do.
In other readings there may be a very clear message to dramatically change direction. For example we might see something like this:
|DruidCraft Tarot © 2004 by Philip and Stephanie Carr-|
The 10 of Swords tells us it's done, there's no more that can be accomplished in the way you have been approaching things. The 8 of Cups shows an abandoning of a way of being that has become emotionally draining, unsatisfying, or stale. The Ace of Pentacles shows a new opportunity that has much more promise. So in this scenario I would urge my client to consider other options and to critically evaluate their current situation for signs that letting go and moving on would be the right choice for them.
This kind of objective feedback is extraordinarily helpful to one in the middle of a quandry over that assessment of whether something truly is worth seeing through or not. We're often given generic cheerleading advise to keep pushing, never give up, anything that's worth doing is worth giving your all, but sometimes that advice may not work for the specific situation you're dealing with. We also have to take into consideration our own patterns. Do we tend to start things and not finish, or only go halfway and give up? Or do we have a history of holding on to something long past its expiry date? Maybe it's time to change that.
Sunday, May 15, 2016
Ginny Hunt Sunday, May 15, 2016
When we're ready to deal with some aspect of ourselves it often bubbles up just to the edges of our consciousness and we start seeing signs and clues for it everywhere. Like connect-the-dot puzzles, those clues lead us to confront, research, and deal with an issue that has been holding us back or hurting us in some way. The symptom of hypervigilance is my connect-the-dot puzzle right now. Specifically, as it relates to intuition. The other day I heard someone on the radio mention one of the symptoms of hypervigilance, which in itself is usually a symptom of PTSD, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. This was just one of many "dots" that have presented lately. I have been in PTSD recovery for most of my adult life following an extremely abusive marriage in my early twenties. I have been somewhat hypervigilant all my life, probably stemming from childhood abuse.
When I escaped from the abusive asshole husband, I moved back in with my mom for a while. My brother was eighteen or nineteen and still living at home. One evening as my brother and I were talking in the living room we simultaneously noticed we were both nervously and repeatedly glancing out the front window during our conversation. We realized that we were mentally "on alert" for our mother's return from work. During our childhood our mother's mood upon arriving home from work tired and "hangry" was often very bad. We tried to secure her good favor by scurrying around, cleaning up, and whichever one of us was assigned dinner duty had to make sure it was well in process before she walked in the door. We sometimes sat nervously waiting for the car to pull into the driveway. Trying to work out from the way the car was driven, the way she opened and shut the door, what kind of mood she was in. Would this be an evening of calm or anger? At the time my brother and I noticed our behavior in the living room that day we were adults and had nothing to fear from the return of our mother. We awkwardly laughed at ourselves, aren't we being silly? Hypervigilance is subtle.
The negative emotional effects of my childhood were not severe. Like everyone, I had imperfect parents but my childhood experiences did not cause my PTSD. My mother was raised by an emotionally abusive mother and grandmother and alcoholic father who himself suffered from extreme combat PTSD. She married at nineteen and had four children. My parents divorced when the oldest child was nine and the youngest was two. My father was not involved in the child rearing except as financial support. Needless to say, my mother was emotionally ill-equipped to deal with it all and she made mistakes, some horrible. Still, she did her best and she did succeed in parenting better than her parents. Nevertheless, there were damages as there usually are, but I did not display the symptoms of PTSD proper until during and after my first marriage when I was faced with the perpetual threat of being seriously injured or killed by my intimate partner.
While many of my PTSD symptoms have diminished with therapy and the healing of time, I continue to be hypervigilant. I rarely experience flashbacks anymore. The more intense and obvious flashbacks are actually easier to manage after the initial freak-out. I can rationally understand that my current emotions are responding to a past situation and I ride it out, coping by focusing on the present reality. The smaller ones, however, fly under my radar and can trigger extreme hypervigilance that I don't immediately recognize as an inappropriate reaction. I think it's normal for me.
In a dictionary definition nutshell, hypervigilance is the condition of maintaining an abnormal awareness of environmental stimuli. It causes one's body and brain to perpetually maintain a heightened state of awareness which is part of the natural fight-or-flight response. What served as a necessary survival tool during the time of trauma continues on to become a part of one's everyday existence, seamlessly woven into every waking moment, every interaction.
On the plus side, it makes one very observant, keenly so. When it comes to "reading people" and scoping situations out, hypervigilance is like a sixth sense. Those with hypervigilance know more about what is going on than most people ever will. They pick up on others' moods and stresses, hone in on details most people miss, and spot the smallest change in their environments. In practice, hypervigilance seems a lot like intuition because this constant scanning for threats becomes second nature. We don't try to do it, we don't think about it, we just do it. It feels like a gift from the trauma endured. In some situations, truly potentially dangerous ones, it is a gift, but it comes at a cost. The price is paid in depeleted mental and physical energy and it could cost your relationships with others.
I think intuition and hypervigilance can merge. It can be difficult to identify which is at work because they share similar "knowing" and results. The main difference is in the physical sensations that accompany them. Hypervigilance is tiring. Exhausting, actually. I often get a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach or a clenching in my throat, and I become restless and there is a strong sense of urgency. That is how I feel fear. By contrast, intuition feels effortless. I am calm and relaxed and my mind just "knows" something or I mentally "hear" a phrase in my head. Hypervigilance develops out of fear and relentlessly gathers external clues. Intuition develops by following one's internal cues rather than external. This is one reason I prefer providing email tarot readings over face-to-face. I can't unconsciously scan the client's facial expressions or body language via text. There is less involvement of my hypervigilance and I can trust that my intuition is coming to the fore. The feedback from my clients suggests that my intuition is quite strong without the hypervigilance in play.
I suspect many people who have what they believe to be very strong intuition are also hypervigilant stemming from a past trauma. Identifying which is operating is key to reducing the cost of the hypervigilance -- stress. Stress, as we know, is incredibly unhealthy and damages the body and brain in measurable ways.
I'm partly loathe to give up hypervigilance as it has been my faithful superpower, but it has degraded my health and well being. I may never release it entirely but I plan to work to replace its function with my intuition. It is comforting to know that I also have developed keen intuition and can continue to strengthen that as I work to reduce the other. For now, I plan to take this wonderful advice given in this in-depth article, Searching for Bad News: The Circuitous Path of Obsessive Thinking by Dr. Heather Stone:
Live with ambiguity. Relax into knowing that, without hyper-vigilance, you have relatively complete and accurate information. The ambiguity that is in and around you is an unclear, imperfect, benign presence that can be trusted and accepted.
The Unknown that you fight so vehemently – that you fear, blame, rail against, and pray would become Real so that it could finally leave you alone – is often better than every known thing you have ever wanted to control. Let me put it another way: every good thing in your life that surprised you was previously unknown to you. You didn’t anticipate or create the people who showed up and loved you. You didn’t manage or direct the gifts that you were given, either literally or metaphorically. Live with the Unknown, because the stuff that will make you happy in life will be the stuff that you can’t control.
Saturday, January 30, 2016
Ginny Hunt Saturday, January 30, 2016
"Be careful not to practice your righteousness in front of others to be seen by them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven."
-- Jesus, Matthew 6:1
When we are doing something that is intended to help someone else the most important thing to remember is that it's not about you. If you respond to that statement, "Well, of course it isn't, silly, I know that." I'm telling you it's harder than you think. Our ego is strong. And smart. And cunning. And it will sneak in self-congratulatory shit when you're not looking.
I read a really thoughtful article the other day on the dilemma of "Good White People" in the fight against racism. The comment section was full of irony, full of "good white people" making it about themselves and then noticing they made it all about themselves and trying to figure out how not to do that. It's hard. The main idea is that no one should feel the need to be congratulated for being a decent human being. You just be one as a matter of course. There are ways to bring important things to the attention of others without also saying, "Look at what a great person I am!" Sometimes we do this with good intention, but it still reeks.
I saw this today: Spiritual Molestation in Chik-Fil-A which I feel really nailed how I have always felt about people doing this sort of thing in public. What made this worse was the underlying coercion of food under condition of prayer. We might say, "What's the big deal? Even if you don't believe, prayer never hurt anyone." True. But to say that one will only help IF the recipient will oblige you is not giving, it's a negotiation. This kind of negotiation is sometimes appropriate but when we are holding something as crucial to life as food as a bargaining tool, we need to be very careful. If the manager of this restaurant really wanted to help this guy he had several options, none of which included making a display of his own faith for others to applaud. He could have asked the guy to meet him around back and take out the trash in exchange for the meal. He might have been able to offer him a job if he showed up every day to take the trash out (and get fed). The manager could have prayed for him silently without drawing attention to himself. I understand God can hear silent prayers.
I also saw this today on why this woman stopped "being a Voluntourist," that is, stopped going on aid missions to third world countries and started coordinating aid efforts that didn't involve her actually being there. The part about the workers coming behind them and tearing down their shoddily laid bricks and relaying them properly (and safely) in the night so the volunteers wouldn't know really brought the point home that these programs are too often set up in a way to be more about the volunteers feeling good about themselves than about the people they are trying to help.
Those who read tarot for others have that "helping others" gene. We truly want to facilitate growth in others and support them in their struggles. That's often the foundational impulse behind what we do. Like any other helping profession it can attract narcissists who get off on various twists of gaining attention, power, and ego stroking, but most of us just want to help. However, even the genuinely motivated ones among us can fall into the "About Me" trap. When we focus on whether or not we did it right, had the right answer, or found the correct interpretation. When we worry too much about the feedback from our clients. When we promote ourselves as super intuitive or act like our readings aren't wrong, the client just isn't in a place to accept the truth. Stop it. It's not about you. Yes, you are the one the client is looking to, but you know better. It's not you, it's them. It's their issue, their struggle, their dilemma, their questions. You're helping only if you understand this and take yourself out of it. The dialogue is between themselves and their understanding of the cards you have done your best to translate for them. You are the interpreter. The conversation is not about you. This subtle but important shift in focus will make such a huge difference in the impact of your readings. By impact I don't mean "accuracy," although that will likely be perceived as such, but by the real and actual help provided by the reading.
All this stuff about helping in a certain way gave me such food for thought because I find myself in a situation now where the last thing I want to do is bring attention to myself for doing something "good" when really, I feel that it's the only human option. My sister was diagnosed with leukemia in 2014. Chemotherapy put her in remission for almost a year. Then she relapsed. The next step is a bone marrow stem cell transplant. Of her three siblings tested, I am the match. In all honesty, I wasn't thrilled with the news and felt like an asshole for not being thrilled. It's not like giving blood, it's a much bigger deal. And the hospital where this will be done is 1000 miles away. There will be missed work, FMLA paperwork, travel time and costs, hotel costs -- all of which our mother is generously financing because it's not covered by my sister's health insurance. Not to mention the procedure itself will require me to be injected with a drug originally meant for cancer patients that disrupts my own bone marrow and causing bone pain for several days and having to sit immobile for six hours or more to have the stem cells harvested. So yeah, it's not nothing. But it really IS nothing when compared to what my sister has endured and will have to endure as the recipient of the transplant. Cancer has turned her life and the lives of her husband and children totally upside down and inside out in ways I'm sure no one but they understand. She recently started a GoFundMe drive in an effort to defray the monster costs of all of this. In my attempts to get the word out to others to hopefully increase donations, I have mentioned my participation in this effort as her donor, but I have tried not to make it about me. Because it's not. Even though it is a little, ultimately it's not. And I know people are just being kind and supportive when they laud me for the act of donating, and I thank them genuinely, but I cringe a bit at the comments that I am "being an angel" or that I am "so awesome." Thank you, and I mean that, but no, I'm not. I don't really see any other option except to be a shitty human being that would deny her the best chance she has to live. And to be honest, I felt weird about posting the GoFundMe thing because I didn't want to bring attention to my part in this but it seemed the best way to get donations for my sister.
I've been taking a break from reading tarot for others until the transplant is over. Just because it's not about me doesn't erase me from the equation. I must still be aware of my own needs else I become useless to others. Making it not about you doesn't mean nothing is about you. You are about you and you need to take care of you. Always remember the flight attendant adage -- "Place your own oxygen mask on first before assisting others."
Sunday, November 01, 2015
Ginny Hunt Sunday, November 01, 2015
Knowing what to expect and expecting to know are two very different things. Miles apart, in fact. No matter how well prepared one may be for a particular possible outcome, when it happens it still comes with all its attending emotional baggage and camps out with you for however long it wishes. Therefore, knowing via tarot that the guy you've been seeing is likely seeing someone else on the side doesn't help the heartbreak or anger. We also can't expect tarot to provide all the solutions. It does help with many things -- a kind of psychic weather prediction or roadmap, a projection into what is probable and likely -- but not definitive. And it can't make your decisions for you. It can be quite informational but what you do with that information, how you choose to form your thoughts about that information will make all the difference in the actual outcome of any given situation.
Getting a reading on a situation is great for exploring. Possibilities, options, directions. A reading can reveal our own attitudes, intentions, and confirm our own intuition, but in the end how we choose to think about the information is what will impact our own outcome no matter what the external outcome of the situation turns out to be. Keeping tabs on your ex may be interesting and satisfying to that part of you that can't seem to let go -- out of love or vengeance, no matter -- but if the reading shows they are happily going about their lives, shouldn't you do the same? We can go back to the reader a month later and ask what the ex has been up to OR we could choose to think differently about the information and use it to release ourselves to our own lives. Going back to the reader is satisfying on some level, but it's a futile action, keeping watch on others (outside our control) or situations (outside our control). We become mere observers in our own lives rather than actively creating and participating.
Many readers will refuse to read on the same topic/person/situation on these grounds. They believe more readings won't help, it amounts to spying, and/or the repetitive readings may enable someone in a kind of tarot dependence. I don't really subscribe to all of that and I will read on the same topic/person/situation multiple times for a client because They Aren't Done Yet. When they are done, they will stop. When they are able to choose their thoughts more effectively, they will stop. Some people require only one reading for this and others require multiple. Each person is at their own level or ability to control their thoughts about any given situation. The more emotionally triggered they are, the harder that is to accomplish.
So we get that we can't control outside events or other people. What if the problem is we cannot control our own thoughts? Marcus, dude, it's not that easy. It's really not easy but it is crucial to one's well being and happiness. I suck at meditation because I can't control my thoughts. They scatter like a herd of cats being chased by a herd of puppies. Then I learned this ---
Some situations will never feel okay. One may never feel "at peace" with a particular outcome. But one can accept it and move on. It's a choice, a conscious decision. We make mistakes. We fuck up. Bad things happen that are our fault, but if we allow guilt, regret, or fear of making the same mistake again to control our choices and decisions going forward, we will simply have different regrets to obsess on later. I think regret is an inevitable constant in life, so we just have to learn not to let it control us.
When we experience something we feel feelings about it. Most of us believe those feelings are what inform our thoughts about the experience -- and they can. However, feelings actually reside in the brain and how we think results in feelings not the other way around. How we perceive an event or experience is a kind of thinking and feelings are a kind of thinking. So the real process looks like this:
Ever wonder why, no matter how many times you tell yourself you will not do something, no matter how many thoughts of inspiration, encouragement and willpower you think you end up doing that thing you specifically told yourself not to do? That's because our actions come from our feelings. BUT -- our feelings come from our thoughts. Sometimes it takes a while for our feelings to catch up to our new or different thought process, but we will finally see our actions in alignment with our thoughts if we force ourselves into the rather uncomfortable process of re-directing of our thoughts. Thinking about things a different way than we are used to, seeing it from a completely different angle. Eventually we will feel differently about the situation and once that happens, actions happen in accordance to the thoughts. But it can take a while. You know, like this:
Monday, September 07, 2015
Ginny Hunt Monday, September 07, 2015
Non-tarot post ahead. I may or may not get political. As today is Labor Day, it's a good time to remember what the hell we're supposed to recognize amid the sales and barbecues. Since we collectively seem doomed to repeat history due to our societal amnesia and reluctance to read more than the blips that flit across our various screens, myself included, I did us all a favor and looked it up. Given the current political climate, I think you'll see why this stroll down memory lane is ironic and a little eerie in its similarity.
If we ask most anyone what Labor Day is for, we'd probably get an answer that says it commemorates the American worker. That's only part right, though. It was meant to honor not just the individual worker, but what workers accomplished together through activism. In fact, in the first 20 years since the first Labor Day observance, even though roughly half the states officially recognized it, most employers assuredly did not. Therefore, Labor Day was pretty much a general strike more than a leisurely day off.
Most of us know the labor movement fought for fair wages and to improve working conditions. It also led the fight against child labor and for the eight-hour workday and the New Deal, which gave us Social Security and unemployment insurance. The driving slogan was "8 hours of work, 8 hours of rest, 8 hours for what we will."
Even tarot has an opinion. It always does about everything. I can't help but notice that the principle card for "work" in tarot is 8 of Pentacles (coins). Eight.
The employers and the government didn't just say, "OK, hard workers, you've earned some quality of life, here you go." These advancements in humane conditions in workplaces were fought for in the streets in bloody riots, strikes, marches, and other collective actions. Employers fought back with strikebreaking, blacklisting, vigilante violence, and by enlisting government force to their side by
While these protests are similar to the recent Occupy Wall Street protests, the main difference seems to be focus and purpose. The Occupy movement has identified a broad number of specific concerns and calls for a general overhaul of many aspects of our economic system. The Labor Movement was focused primarily on working conditions. I think maybe it's easier to raise awareness and ire about focused issues rather than broad, amorphous Change. Unions won in the end and with them the luxurious working conditions we now take for granted.
Recent anti-union sentiment has diminished the pull and members of these organizations as well as internal strife being their own undoing. Recently the governor of Wisconsin wrote into law the seven-day work week. Contrasting that, we also have the Raise The Minimum Wage movement gaining momentum along with local organizations of workers that aren't unions, per se, but where workers in a common industry will gather and organize activism.
Wherever you may stand on these issues these facts remain:
One cannot live on $7.25 an hour. Being below the poverty line qualifies one for federal assistance in the form of SNAP (food stamps), Medicaid, and possibly other benefits depending on one's family situation. If we want to reduce the taxpayer burden of welfare, workers need to earn a Living Wage that allows a family to pay for rent, transportation, food, utilities, and clothing without having to rely on welfare. Across the country, costs of living varies, but the average living wage -- which is the bare minimum one can earn to meet one's basic needs -- is around $12 an hour. This issue is a true working class issue and one worth considering today, on Labor Day.
Saturday, April 04, 2015
Ginny Hunt Saturday, April 04, 2015
Strength, of course. Strength illustrates both inner and outer fortitude, strength, and bravery often emerging from the most unlikeliest of sources. It is a fairly obvious depiction and one that we associate easily with Courage.
But have you thought about others? Courage is displayed throughout the deck. The 7 of Wands displays a kind of crazy, madman courage in the face of overwhelming odds and besides, he's not ready. He didn't have time to put on proper footwear. The 5 of Pentacles shows the inner strength to persevere when one is at the rope's frayed end but to keep going despite hardships and challenges. The 8 of Cups shows the courage to strike out on one's own, leaving behind what once was cherished.
“There are so many ways to be brave in this world. Sometimes bravery involves laying down your life for something bigger than yourself, or for someone else. Sometimes it involves giving up everything you have ever known, or everyone you have ever loved, for the sake of something greater.
But sometimes it doesn't.
Sometimes it is nothing more than gritting your teeth through pain, and the work of every day, the slow walk toward a better life.
That is the sort of bravery I must have now.”
But sometimes it doesn't.
Sometimes it is nothing more than gritting your teeth through pain, and the work of every day, the slow walk toward a better life.
That is the sort of bravery I must have now.”
Stories. We all have our stories, our moments, however brief, of striking courage that surprised ourselves most of all. We look back and wonder at our own bravery, or foolish recklessness, because sometimes it's hard to tell the difference. Sometimes we don't even recognize it as bravery. We were just doing what had to be done and didn't feel any special commission that stated, "This is bravery, right here." It was just necessary and we did it.
“Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow.”
Bravery isn't usually on display. It rarely is and that's why we have such high standards for it and don't recognize it in ourselves. We have a Hollywood expectation of bravery. We think that once we
do something rash exhibit courage that it should be a game changer, that all will be set right because we finally did what we were afraid to do. That's bullshit. There are times in life when we must find the courage to keep going every single day. That's no better or worse than any other kind of bravery. It's made of the same stuff.
We need to understand that we're not going to understand someone else's brave. What may come easy to one is a daunting struggle to another. My experience of a similar or even the same event is not your experience. I come from a family of introverts, of which I am one just less so, who thought I was brave to dance in front of an audience, speak to large crowds, and tell off a judge (and gained his favor in doing so). These things come easy to me so I don't see the bravery. Sometimes I can look back and see it, but never in the moment. Some of the most courageous things I've ever done were done where no one could see, and even had they seen they probably would not call what I did courageous. Dragging myself off the sofa to take a walk in the midst of a debilitating depression was brave. Leaving one life behind for another while everyone, even I, disapproved was brave. Someone else's brave may be leaving the house determined not to re-check that the stove is off.
My sister was recently diagnosed with leukemia. The chemo made her feel much worse than the disease and she had to go through four agonizing rounds that made her guts raw, her body weak, and took away her beautiful long hair. There were times she said she had frightening thoughts of dying, but overall she tried to remain positive. She told me, "It's just a ride. A crazy ride, but we'll get through it." I don't understand this brave. Were it me, I'd have my funeral planned, written long letters to my loved ones, taken videos to leave them, and cried and cried in mournful self-pity. I once had a biopsy (benign, of course) and did all these things. My sister is now in remission and cancer-free. Brave, not just to face the disease but also to take control of her wellness. She might say no, it was not brave, just something that had to be done. But that's what courage is made of: doing what needs to be done.
“To try to be brave is to be brave.”
~ George MacDonald
~ George MacDonald
Sunday, March 22, 2015
Ginny Hunt Sunday, March 22, 2015
“I choose a lazy person to do a hard job. Because a lazy person will find an easy way to do it.”
- Cleanse decks
- Use a classic Significator
- Use astrological associations
- Use Kaballah associations
- Do anything about "energies" (no smudging here)
- Use Reversals
- Look at the "Shadow Card"
- Ruminate on a reading
I'm not an astrologer and feel that trying to learn a whole 'nother vast metaphysical art to overlay tarot is just too much work. If I wanted to learn astrology, I would, and maybe someday I will, but not today. Kaballah, same. I've tried using various stones and crystals and noticed nothing different, so whatever floats your boat is fine, no rocks in my boat. I don't "ground" myself other than one deep
I don't turn the cards physically upside down to read "reversals," I generally get a sense by the position, the cards next to/around it, and the question asked whether the card's meaning is "reversed." I forget to look at the bottom card in the deck, so the Shadow Card remains in the shadows. Sometimes other tarot readers have said they will leave a reading out on a table for days to think about it, ruminate over it, journal it to go back to later. I don't. I have journaled specific readings but I always forgot to go back to them, so what was the point?
- Shuffle, a lot
- Use a Sort of Significator
- Use symbolism: colors, numbers, elemental, suits, objects, etc.
- Use history
- Pay attention to patterns
- Listen to random observations my mind blurts out
- Use common sense
Most of the readings I do include a card that speaks to what the client is thinking, feeling, and/or how they are approaching the issue at hand. This is a Sort of Significator, and I use it because it gives very useful information for the client to use when formulating a plan of action. They can see whether their approach is helpful or not based on what the reading reveals about the other factors and influences.
For me, symbolism is absolutely key in interpreting tarot. Symbols are the language of all humans in all of history. Language itself is symbolism and vice versa. Connected to this is my understanding of history, culture, and the human experience. I notice patterns in the cards. Numbers, suits, colors that appear repeatedly or in a progression or order mean something. Sometimes my mind will say something really random, like an idiom or lyrics from a song and I've learned these random phrases are hugely significant to the reading. I always use them. There was a time I ignored them and was routinely surprised when the client gave feedback that included that exact phrase! When I started speaking them I found my client's feedback often confirmed that phrase played a key role in the situation.
Finally, I use common sense. When the Lovers card appears in a reading that has nothing whatsoever to do with romance, I do not imply the client will fall in love in the middle of updating her resume. While it is possible she may meet a charming person at a job fair, it just isn't sensible to talk romance when she's trying to find out her best option to advance her career. Not ruling it out, just saying, keep on topic.
The practice of tarot reading is so unique to each reader. What works well for one is cumbersome for another. I have been known to spend untold hours researching symbolism and cultural history in my pursuit to understand tarot card meanings. Many readers would shake their head and say, "Ain't nobody got time for that!" But I love it. I love the research and the richness of history and how people lived in times before, how that relates to the images we see now, the connections, the gaps, all of it. Others feel and experience a very tangible difference when using cleansing rituals or objects. Some can't help but see the astrological or Kaballistic connections and feel they would be remiss if they didn't include them. Whatever you do or don't do in your reading process matters only to you.
But seriously, lazy is good. Keeping what works efficiently and either re-working or tossing out what doesn't makes sense in everything we do. Time and effort are both valuable resources. Be lazy and enjoy what you do.
Saturday, January 10, 2015
Ginny Hunt Saturday, January 10, 2015
I should never leave a health-issue-related blog post for months without a follow up as several people have written to be sure I haven't succumbed to whatever-it-was. Sorry about that. I tend to withdraw from social interaction when I'm dealing with stuff, like cats hide when they're hurting or sick, me too. UPDATE: Nerve compression is all but gone. I am left with some lingering muscle spasms and twitches but no pain. (Yay!) I'm still working on another issue that will need some outpatient surgery in about a month and that has me worried, still, about finances. All the tests and doctor visits at the end of last year took all of the HSA money and I still owe hundreds of dollars, not counting the upcoming procedure, which I expect will be a few thousand. I am genuinely worried how to fund necessary health care.
Worry is something I'm very good at. If medals were given I'd have a trophy wall dedicated to worry. Logically I know that worry is harmful and doesn't solve anything. I have much improved in the area of worry-control and find I can tame it faster, but I think it's just a natural by-product of my over-thinking mind. Also, worry has actually served me well at times so it's hard to let go of it.
I read this and completely related:
You have mixed feelings about your worries. On one hand, your worries are bothering you—you can't sleep, and you can't get these pessimistic thoughts out of your head. But there is a way that these worries make sense to you. For example, you think:
You have a hard time giving up on your worries because, in a sense, your worries have been working for you.
- Maybe I'll find a solution.
- I don't want to overlook anything.
- If I keep thinking a little longer, maybe I'll figure it out.
- I don't want to be surprised.
- I want to be responsible.
I have found solutions to problems this way. I have come up with plans to deal with unknown outcomes, if they happen. I have figured stuff out this way. So it's hard to completely let go of worry because it has worked for me. And since one of the most common reasons someone requests a tarot reading is due to worry, I bet I have plenty of company in this problem area.
One suggestion I've read is to postpone your worries to a set "worry time." This one doesn't work for me but it may work for others. I do a different but similar thing: I distract myself by telling myself I can't spend time on the worry-of-the-moment right now and I'll deal with it later. So while I don't set aside a certain time, I do push it away for "later."
"If a problem is fixable, if a situation is such that you can do something about it, then there is no need to worry. If it's not fixable, then there is no help in worrying. There is no benefit in worrying whatsoever." -- Dalai Lama XIVOne really helpful step to do is to parse out whether the worry thing is actually solveable. If it's an imaginary "what-if?" it's probably not worth your time. Unfortunately, these are precisely the kinds of worries that so many dwell on. If you are able to take action on your problem right away, then it is probably a productive worry. If not, then it's unproductive. Recognizing the difference helps because action on a problem reduces or eliminates worry and for the ones you cannot act on, such as "What if my child is in a terrible accident someday?" you can more easily let go.
Worrying itself feels productive but it isn't. When we are worrying our emotions are somewhat suspended because the worry keeps us in our heads and distracts us from feeling. While we are thinking about how to solve the problem (or so we tell ourselves that's what we're doing) we're avoiding the underlying emotions. Who wouldn't want to avoid feeling anxious, sad, or other negative emotions? However, suppressed emotions don't go away and tend to fuel even more anxiety to the point that we end up worrying about why we're feeling what we're feeling! Crazy. It can be helpful to tell yourself to just feel whatever it is you're feeling, then cry, get angry, feel sad, have a brief pity party. This one is hard for me, but I'm working on it.
For the solvable worries, brainstorming possible solutions and/or doing a tarot reading can help tremendously. The problem you're worrying about is often real and the steps toward a solution are very real and actionable, too.
Sunday, October 05, 2014
Ginny Hunt Sunday, October 05, 2014
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I've been really out of sorts for a few months. This blog and many other things have taken a back seat to some sudden onset health issues I've been dealing with. It has been stressful but I'm finally taking action and I'm finally starting to feel more like myself again.
It started in June, more or less. I'd had a pinched nerve in my upper back a few years ago and it went away on its own. It took six weeks but when it was gone, it was gone. Until a few months ago. This time it didn't go away. Instead, after four weeks it changed. It became much sharper and sent more than a dull ache down my right arm. Shocks of nerve pain were constantly traveling up into my neck, down my arm and to my fingers. Walking hurt. Working hurt. Cooking hurt. Cleaning hurt. Driving hurt. I lived on anti-inflammatory meds and rest.
I delayed going to the doctor because insurance. I have it, but it's not affordable. High Deductible Plan with only $500 in my Health Savings Account. I know that nerves cannot be seen on lower cost x-rays and that I would need a pricey MRI. I didn't know what kinds of medications I would need to pay for out of pocket. I also have to pay for non-preventive doctor visits out of pocket and I also have another pressing health issue I must see a doctor for which will likely lead to more imaging tests and lab work that, again, I must pay for out of pocket. My pocket is not that deep. My rent is being raised $50 a month starting next month and I still don't know how that will be adjusted for in my no-wiggle-room budget. In addition to the pain and ongoing symptoms and concern for my health, I was also very concerned about my finances.
And then of course, there's Doctor Google. I was pretty sure I was dying of cancer by the time I had researched my symptoms. Possibly three or four types of cancer. And maybe a rare genetic disorder, I'm not sure.
Driven by pain and worry I scheduled my appointments and said fuck it to the finances. About a week before my appointment, the pain subsided a lot. The nerve shocks still occur when triggered, but the unrelenting pain is gone. Sweet relief! The doctor prescribed predisone which gave me
|The Thinker in the Dark - A5 by |
This is why I don't read tarot for health issues: Anxiety. I may have pulled a few cards for my situation over the last few months but the swords cards always made me think I was going to have surgery and the pentacles cards made me think I would have to pay a lot of money. I pulled one before my visit to the neurosurgeon and it was the King of Swords, which cracked me up because that's a surgeon card if there ever was one. It was like tarot saying, "Just go see the doctor." Which is probably what I'll tell you if you ask me for a health reading.
|Pamela A. tarot|
I will read about how you can make the most productive use of your time while you are dealing with health issues. I will ask tarot for advice how you can focus on self-care. But the advice will be general to your health issue and specific to you. I will not attempt to, nor should I, diagnose your issue. We may discover, for example, that stress is contributing to your issue, but stress will not be the issue. If the Death card appears, I will tell you that something will end, hopefully your health issue, and you will need to adjust to something new in the way of living life after that -- and we'll draw a card to see how to navigate that. I will not tell you that Death means death in a health related tarot reading. I will not give you a prognosis because how foolish and irresponsible would that be? The last thing anyone needs is a reading that echoes Doctor Google. I will interpret the cards in light of what you can do today, tomorrow, in your present and immediate future to aid in your recovery and wholeness and this is often how tarot readings work anyway. It approaches your situation from a holistic view.
There really are very, very few things I won't read tarot about. Sometimes I will tell a client that the proposed reading is a waste of their time and money and allow them to reconsider, but I will usually read on whatever my clients ask. They know their pressing questions far better than I. Health issues, both physical and mental, are different because they usually need the attention of a professional trained in that discipline. I am a tarot professional not a health professional and that is where the line is drawn. Besides, more often than not when health issues have played a part in the reading the cards recommend seeing a physician or mental health professional. I often see Kings, Queens, Hierophants, and Hermits in those readings. Kings and Queens often represent professionals, Hierophants often symbolize established institutions such as traditional medicine, and Hermits can be counselors and therapists. So if you ask me about a worrisome health issue I will tell you to see a doctor and we'll read about how to cope in the meantime.
As for me, I'm firing Doctor Google and seeing real ones.